I'm taking the time to write this post knowing full well that most people will skim it, if not completely skip over it. And that's fine. I guess it's more for my way of coping with the grief over my Grandma's passing. Losing her has brought back so much pain from losing Grandpa 6 years ago, so it feels like I've lost them both at the same time. It's taken me a few days to feel like I can even write this without completely losing it.
Matty, Jossy and I attended my Grandma Larson's funeral on Saturday in Burley, Idaho. We came extremely close to getting in what would have been a horrible car accident just miles from our destination. It would have involved 2 semis, a pickup truck, and our little sedan at 75 miles an hour. I won't get into it, but I'll say spiritual promptings of Dan's back home let me know afterwards how bad it would've been. We're very thankful to have made it there and back in one piece, and we're very thankful for the power of prayer and a Heavenly Father who answers them even when we don't understand why it's needed.
Grandma's funeral was hard of course, but I learned so much about her. It's funny how much you can be around someone your whole life but not really understand the depth of who they are until listening to their life sketch. Many stories were told about her and Grandpa that made me miss my childhood very badly.
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| Marva Fae Smith Larson (around age 16) |
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| My grandparents with me on my blessing day |
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| The last picture I have with her just after Lacey was born in April 2011 |
Many, many, MANY things were said about Grandma and her cookies. She ALWAYS had cookies for everyone. So as a tribute some of the granddaughters baked chocolate chip cookies, and they were passed out to each funeral guest. It was a loving, beautiful gesture.
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| Her well-known cookie jar with more miles on it than any other in existence |
Grandma was buried in the cemetery adjacent to her property. We grew up climbing the fence from her yard to the cemetery to visit other ancestors, rake leaves for fun, and put roses on random tombstones. It was hard being there since her plot is right next to the fence. We literally had this view of her house when standing at her burial site.
It honestly felt like she was going to step out of the kitchen onto the back porch at any minute and yell for Grandpa to come help her with something. It killed me inside to have so many memories
right there as we said goodbye.
They gave all the grandchildren roses in honor of her rose garden, and since there were some leftovers my 2 kids wanted one each, too.
I'll probably be off a little bit here, but Grandma and Grandpa had 8 children, 39 grandchildren, 98(ish) great-granchildren, and about 10 great-great-grandchildren, plus one foster daughter and her family. We packed that relief society room for family prayer prior to the funeral like no one had before. :)
After the funeral we enjoyed catching up with family at a luncheon at the church. Walking in that cultural hall, it suddenly hit me that this was the same room we celebrated Grandma and Grandpa's 50th wedding anniversary 20-some years before and where we had held Grandma's 90th birthday party just a couple years ago. It all made me sad to realize those things were just memories now.
My siblings and I don't have many opportunities to be all together any more since one lives on the West coast and one on the East, but we were all there this weekend.
After the luncheon, we went back to my grandparent's house for a bit. There were pictures of my family still on Grandma's dresser from when she last was there a few years ago. She's been in a care center in Bountiful since some strokes a while back and wasn't ever able to return home.
Everything was just the way it was when they both lived there, included Grandpa's hats still hung in the laundry room.
There was really one main reason we went back to the house, and that's so my kids could experience the thrill of Grandpa's rope swing. But that demands it's own post another day.